the fact of two things being seen or placed close together with contrasting effect.
Early in the summer I described life as a roller coaster, but this week I’ve exited the fast moving coaster and climbed aboard the Pirate Ship.
You know the feeling, right? The boat steeply swings the bow high into the sky, pausing for just a moment until gravity pulls the boat through the swinging motion and quickly the stern has climbed into the sky the other way, leaving your stomach somewhere in the middle. The emotion of this past week have left me with that same feeling.
Joy and Sadness, Relief and Anxiety,
Excitement and Order, Usual and Unfamiliar
These have been just a few of the emotions that have been residing side by side changing moment to moment as I helped Honorable Son #1 pack for college and then delivered him to his school home.
All summer I had proclaimed loudly that off to college was where he needed to be. As he spent the summer exercising his wings preparing to fly, the others of us comfortably positioned in the nest experienced a little turbulence.
The beating of his wings and the stretching of his growing choices and options were all clear signs that his time to fly was near and necessary, unfortunately my heart didn’t seem to get the message.
I spent the evening before his leaving hearing the sound of him from his room, the room in which I gave birth to him, where he officially entered this world, and was overcome with the passing of time, remembering my little boy now on the cusp of being a man………swing back the other way………just a week earlier and that same “noise” from his room just left me cranky from lack of sleep!
The first evening after dropping him off I mourned the idea of cooking for 3 people instead of 4………swing back the other way………just a week earlier and I labored over cooking dinner for anybody!
Several days later and tears fill my eyes as his door stands open to a quiet empty room……..swing back the other way……..just a week ago I couldn’t stand to open the door and look in at the mess he called a room!
Parenting is an ever-changing path filled with merry-go-rounds, roller coasters, pirate ships, a few entertaining musical parades, and maybe a corn dogs or two. Now I am hoping the amusement park path of life leads me to the wave pool, for just a small break, so that I can sit along the edge with my feet in the water and maybe a good book in my hand. A few moments of sunshine and stillness would be a great relief for my flopping emotions.
I take comfort in knowing that God has placed Honorable Son #1 on a promising path. His sticks have been gathered and placed in a new nesting place for the time being.
I know that he has the tools and capability to take on the challenges that lay ahead. His wings are strong, he is called to fly.